This is a note I wrote on Facebook after last year’s Fest season ended. I am copying it here for several reasons: Because it provides a nice contrast between my feelings at the end of last year’s run with my feelings at the end of this year’s run; because some of the feelings are still relevant (like not being able to form “quick” friendships like everyone else); and because it really delves into one of the plights I experience as an introvert, which is kind of the topic of this blog (even though not all most posts are germane to that topic).
Reflections on the 2009 Fest Season
Another year of Fest has come and gone. It wasn’t my best season. My heart just wasn’t really in it this year – I missed more Saturdays than I attended – but hey, I’m a newlywed, give me a break! I am very jealous of those whose other halves are just as nuts about Fest as they are, but while my husband likes Fest, he’s not as fanatic as I am and this season, my heart was at home with my new husband.
Another reason I think I struggled this season is that after 5 years as a chocolate wench, I decided to sell beer with the Jaycees this year. I’m glad I did, because selling chocolate was not a great gig, but after 5 years, I was just starting to get to know the people in the Bakery Stage area.
It takes me forever to get to know people well enough to open up to them, and Fest is a real challenge for me because I have seven weekends a season to get to know people, and typically I start to open up a little around weekend 6 or 7, just in time for the season to end. Then, 10 months go by, so that by the beginning of the next season, I feel about as ready to open up as I did around weekend 3 or 4 of the previous season. So after five years in the same place, I felt like I saw kind of starting at square one again this year.